Untuk Awak

Untuk Awak

May 30, 2013  

Saya tau awak takkan baca.
That's why saya coret kat sini.
Dengan penuh harapan dihati awak akan baca.
Bertuah sungguh saya kalau awak baca.

Ok, merepek. Macam mana awak nak baca kalau saya private blog ni kan.

Saya nak minta maaf sangat sangat dekat awak..
Mungkin saya ada buat salah besar dekat awak..
Mungkin saya ada sakitkan hati awak..
Kalau betul..
Saya minta maaf sangat sangat..
Saya tak ada niat pun nak sakitkan hati awak..
Mungkin dah ditentukan..
Saya bukan untuk awak..
Saya bukan yang terbaik untuk awak..
Mungkin dah ditentukan ada orang yang lebih baik dari saya untuk awak..

Erm. Untungnya orang tu kan?

Saya rasa bertuah sangat sebab dapat kenal awak.

Mungkin memang dah ditakdirkan kita dipertemukan hanya sebagai kawan.

Tapi bagi saya awak bukan kawan biasa.

Awak kawan saya yang lebih daripada biasa.

Walaupun kadang kadang saya rasa macam nak cubit-cubit je awak ni.

Rasa macam nak tumbuk tumbuk je muka awak.

Sebab kadang kadang awak buat saya terasa hati dengan sikap awak.

Sebab kadang kadang awak buat saya anggap awak ni musuh terbesar saya.

Awak tetap kawan saya.

Sampai bila bila..

Awak tetap sebahagian daripada memory hidup saya.

Yang menggembirakan saya waktu saya sedih.

Yang beri sokongan dekat saya waktu saya ada pertandingan.

Yang mendengar dan beri nasihat dekat saya waktu saya dalam masalah.
Yang suruh saya hati hati dan jaga diri masa nak pergi kem.
Yang marah saya bila saya kata saya taknak jaga diri.

Tiada apa yang mampu saya buat melainkan doakan kebahagiaan awak.

Bahagia didunia dan diakhirat.

Awak tetap kawan saya yang takkan pernah saya lupakan.

This is my promise to you

This is my promise to you

May 29, 2013   love, promise, you,

I promise to be your warm spot to cuddle up to when you feel cold
I promise to be your soft place to land if you should fall
I promise to be the first one to say I am sorry (even if I was right)
I promise to be there for you in all of your times of joy and sorrow
I promise to support you no matter what your decision (even if I don't agree )
I promise to make a new memory with you each and every day
I promise to love you without change
I promise to make you laugh
I promise to not make you cry
I promise to give you strength when you are weak
I promise to love you forever
I promise to cherish you and your love
I promise to compromise with you
I promise to never take your love for granted
I promise to never lose faith in you
I promise to never give you a reason to distrust me
I promise to always trust you
I promise to work with you to resolve our conflicts
I promise to always be proud of you
I promise to never let you feel alone in this world
I promise to find new ways everyday to keep the fires of passion burning
I promise to always keep you as an equal partner
I promise to never say things to you in anger
I promise to be your partner for life
I promise to be your shelter from the storm
I promise you a love everlasting..

Awak ♥

Awak ♥

May 29, 2013   love, sorry, thanks, you,

Awak, walaupun saya bukannya siapa² dalam hidup awak.
Walaupun kita ni cuma berkawan.
Saya nak awak tau yang saya harap sangat awak takkan tinggalkan saya.
Saya akan cuba untuk tak kecewakan awak sebab saya sayang awak.

If only you could understand my feeling.
If only you have the same feeling as I do.
I will be the happiest girl in the world.

Awak.
Terima kasih atas segala yang awak dah buat untuk saya.
Terima kasih sebab dah datang dalam hidup saya.
Terima kasih sebab dah buat saya gembira.
Terima kasih sebab berada di sisi susah dan senang saya.
Terima kasih sebab selalu beri nasihat dan semangat.
Terima kasih sebab setia mendengar.
Terima kasih sebab sudi menyakat saya.
Terima kasih sebab dah beri saat² bahagia tu.
Terima kasih untuk segalanya.
Terima kasih untuk selamanya.

Uh, berapa banyak kali nak terima kasih lah kan.
Tapi tak apa lah sebab bukannya awak baca pun.

Awak.
Saya nak minta maaf.
Maaf kalau saya buat awak sakit hati.
Maaf sebab perangai ngada² saya.
Maaf sebab saya pernah marahkan awak tanpa sebab.
Maaf kalau dah buat awak bosan dengan sikap saya.
Maaf kalau saya selalu menyibuk hal awak padahal kita cuma kawan je.
Maaf kalau ada gurau kasar.
Maaf kalau buat awak terasa hati.
Maaf kalau saya tak dengar cakap awak.
Maaf untuk segalanya.
Maaf untuk selamanya.

Saya faham. Saya dan awak cuma kawan.
Mungkin saya je yang anggap awak lebih sedangkan awak takda perasaan langsung pun pada saya.

Kalau dulu, masa awak cerita pasal budak yang awak suka tu dekat saya.
Hanya Allah je tau apa perasaan saya.
Tapi saya tak tunjuk rasa sakit hati saya. Saya tak tunjuk rasa cemburu saya.
Saya bagi nasihat dekat awak. Macam² nasihat saya bagi dekat awak supaya awak dapat dia.
Saya pun tak tau kenapa saya buat macam tu sedangkan saya tau yang hati saya akan sakit.
Mungkin sebab dah sayang kot.

Tapi sekarang, saya dah tak kisah dah awak nak suka siapa pun sebab itu hak awak.
Saya tak nak amik tau pun awak suka siapa sebab nanti yang merana pun diri saya sendiri.
Saya nak belajar jadi kuat tapi bukan bermakna saya lupakan awak.
Saya cuma tak nak terlalu berharap dengan perkara yang tak mungkin jadi.
Mungkin jugak sebab saya dah putus asa simpan perasaan dekat awak.

Walau apa pun yang terjadi.
Walau apa pun keadaan.
Walau apa pun yang awak buat.
Walau dimana pun awak berada.
Walau siapa pun awak suka.
Walau awak mungkin awak tak akan ingat saya lagi bila awak dah jumpa buah hati awak.
Saya akan tetap doakan awak.
Saya akan tetap sokong awak sampai bila²..

Minho

Minho

May 24, 2013   kpop, Minho, SHINee,

Living in Korea doesn’t mean that your world revolves around KPOP only. I am Korean, but little people know that some Kpop acts are fake. It is sad, but that is the truth. At one point, I even stayed away from the Kpop scene and opted to listen and follow the underground acts only.

But working in the publishing filed, directly involving with Kpop.. I have to be neutral. I have to keep reminding myself not to be too skeptical but it was hard when the thing you do not wish to see, do not want to hear are in front of your eyes. But it all changed in one day. It is all because of SHINee.

We anticipated that day very much, because we finally got our chance to do the interview of this group that we admire so much. I am not a big fan myself, but I respect them as they work very hard to accomplish what they have today, being in this cruel industry where the competition is very fierce.

That day, we couldn’t wait to meet SHINee.

As soon as we were done with talking and interviewing Key, Onew, Taemin and Jonghyun, it was finally Minho’s turn. He was very quiet and thoughtful the whole time questions were being asked to the rest of the boys. He talked occasionally, and smiled most of the time. At other times he simply looked down, and laughed a bit at the jokes Onew was telling. He threw glances at the boys and there was no mistake the strong brotherhood that these boys have. He would pat Taemin’s back sometimes and squeezed the tense muscles out of Jonghyun’s shoulders.

The sessions continued for more than two hours, and at one point he even went to get the drinks for the members instead of waiting for our staff to bring them to them.

Jonghyun and Taemin went out of the room for a while, and we started to ask Minho our 1st question to him. “Minho is known as a very competitive person. Some people say it is very disturbing to see that streak in you because you are young and you are supposed to enjoy your life or not taking anything too seriously. What do you have to say to that?”

He looked very much lost in thought for a while before calmly stating:

“When I was very young.. I wanted to become a professional soccer player. I love sports very much to a point where I learned everything there is to it about football, and entered every football match around. My thirst in winning was unquenchable that I worry my family off. One day, my dad told me he opposed of me of pursuing that one thing I ever wanted at the time and I was crushed. He didn’t want me to become a football player. He said having sports as a career is very tough, he knows it because he is a professional football coach himself. I was lost and didn’t know what to do and when I came to my senses, I decided that I would never quit to fight in everything I do. If I do one thing, I do it wholeheartedly, even if people keep telling me it’s impossible, I would never want to believe them and I would have faith in myself instead. Fight something as if it is your last fight.. as if there would be no more chance to do that later. That’s what triggers the competitiveness in me.. If I lose, I would be very disappointed with myself, keep blaming myself of the loss. Keep telling myself I would do even better in the future.”

At this point, Onew kept nodding at what Minho was saying. We were surprised when Onew added, “Minho does what he does best, doing at his very best ability like there’s no tomorrow. Be it in performing, or playing or sports. Even I cannot do that as a leader.”

Q: You were seen as the quietest out of the five. Is there any reason to it?

A: I am the youngest in my family. I have an elder brother. I was raised to listen and then talk. Not to talk and then listen. Meaning that, I was taught by my mother to be an observer and a listener. Because my hyung is the first son in my father’s side of family line in 30 years, he was the center of attention, while I enjoy being by his side – to be a good friend for him in an oppressed situation, to always be there for my mother and my father when they need me… even if I do not do good as their son. That’s why I am quiet most of the time. I tend to listen rather than do the talking.

By this, Key said to us, “If he is loud…. he is toooo loud,” which aroused laughter in the room and having Minho chuckled, looking slightly blushed.

The interview session went about for another 30 minutes. Bu this time, he looked very comfortable, and was able to talk more freely.

Q: What’s the name of SHINee’s fan club? What do your fans mean to you?

A: [smiled widely before continuing] It’s SHINee World or SHAWOL in short. Where I am today, where we are today… It would be impossible without the love and support by our fans, we went to see SM Youtube page sometimes and were very, very surprised to see the warm, encouraging comments left by the fans on our videos. I hope I’ll be able to understand English more. I want to be able to understand what they were saying. We worked on this new album for 9 months… having sleepless nights of choosing songs.. writing lyrics.. singing rehearsals… recording songs… dancing training.. discussing the concept etc.. all for our fans. We are glad that we finally get to do what we love most which is to entertain.

Q: Any last words to your fans?

A: Thousand of apologies on my bended knees to our beloved fans because I cannot perform on the stage with other members. We just finished recording our MV and just waited for the comeback stage when that accident happened. My ruptured muscle would take a very long time to recuperate but as for now I am taking the medicine which enables me to resume my stage performance in the near future. I am still in pain but will endure it for the fans. Please forgive me for my recklessness. SHINee World is our world. Our world revolves around them. We appreciate your love very much. If I could bow to each and very one of you, I would. ‘Thank you very much’ would not be sufficient enough but please know in your heart that we really appreciate all of you. And for that, I THANK YOU. WE THANK YOU.

As the session wrapped up, we came to realize that these shining boys are very special. Minho is such a good conversationalist. We would never expect that from him. He is very humble and down-to-earth.. when he went out of the room, the rest of the 4 boys waited restlessly for him to come back.

Taemin selected food from each tray and put them on a plate. “This is for Minho hyung,” he said. Key kept bothering him at the side, “Minho doesn’t eat this one. Let’s take more Kimbap rolls for him. He loves that.”

SHINee won’t be SHINee without Choi Min Ho. SHINee won’t be SHINee without Key, Onew, Jonghyun and Taemin. They complete each other up.
Before the day ended, I realized that I am proud of these young men who work very hard in accomplishing what they have today. Surviving in Kpop is tough and I hope they will stay humble and stay the way they are, to keep their feet on the ground always and not forgetting their roots.

That day I realized I wanted to become a SHAWOL too. That 1 day I realized, Kpop is not such a bad wave after all. Thanks to Minho & SHINee, I have more faith in Kpop nowadays.

That is the reason why I love SHINee so much !

Still I Hope For More, And More, In This Funny Little World

Still I Hope For More, And More, In This Funny Little World

May 24, 2013  

Suddenly I'm famous
and people know my name.

My heart has been captured
by your fully little smile.

I don't know for sure
Where this is going.

Don't promise me forever
just love me day by day.

If only I didn't tease you so much
If only I didn't jealous of her
If only you know the truth of the story
If only your new friends didn't judging me
If only you understands my situation
If only both of us said what we felt
If only I can repair all those times

School Holiday!~

School Holiday!~

May 24, 2013   holiday,

Hey. Guess what. Today is the first day second term of school holiday !
Haha, everyone knows that already rigth?

Hooray, look at my blog. there's some change I've already made.
It's only little change only though.
I'm thinking about further my study in Denim Template editing. Haha
This blog look dull. Anyway thanks to Nabila for thas template ^^

This 2 week of school holiday. I don't really have any plan for it.
I'll just go with the flow maybe?

Tomorrow first day in the morning I have to work.
Don't know where/what work I have to do this time.
And then Sunday I have Running Man.
I feel quite nervous because this is my first time joining it.
The most mean thing is everyone make me as their target.
Kyaa! why are you so mean to newbie?

I guess I want to fill my blog with 'Character in my life' entry..
One day one character..

Last Day

Last Day

May 23, 2013  

Wink².. Short entri~

Harini last day exam so kena semangat sikit !
Duh, sejarah paper 3.. tiga jam tuu.
Kalau siap awal nanti ape nak buat ek?

Act, tak sabar nak cuti. hehe
2 minggu cuti tapi takde plan pape pon..
Yang ada pun gi kerja sabtu ni, gi Running Man ahad ni lepastu balik kampung 31 haribulan nanti..

Erm, k lahh.. pi study sejarah jap. See ya after school !

*p/s : Oh bloggie, kau tunggu lah aku edit kau balik nanti.

Hey World !

Hey World !

May 16, 2013  

See² ? Welcome to my new bloggie ^^
I create this blog special for me to express my feeling.

Nak luahkan kat blog lagi satu, public sangat pulak..
Nak luahkan kat facebook kang ada yang kata bajet hotsentap pulak.
Nak luahkan dekat twitter? Adelah jugakk. hehe

So, blog ni akan ku banjirkan dengan entri² mengenai diri aku dan perasaan aku.
Kira macam diari lah gituu. Boleh?
Memanglah boleh! Blog aku, suka hati aku lah nak buat ape pon kan.

Haih kau ni pink, tulis panjang² pon bukan ada yang membaca. mwahaha

Ok la, sampai sini je dulu intro.. Nak kena study untuk exam biologi esok..
Malam esok baru aku buat formal intro kat blog ni.

See ya!

Important Date

Important Date

May 15, 2013